Blessing in disguise! 

This last week was something. I was angry, lonely, happy, excited, frustrated, looking forward, etc etc. Probably I felt every sort of emotion. 

I prepared my kids for two exams. First was Medhavi, a scholarship test organized by MCD. This paper comes in Hindi, so it was a tough job for me also to prepare them. But did it. And did the best. Whatever I could do in a limited time. I prepared them well, I can say. And then on the D-day, those "sarkari" things that happen. I was just so overwhelmed. So angry! But could not do anything about it except just keeping quiet and not taking part in those actions at all. That was the only way I could be exemplar. I was happy that just after the test, the students were honest enough in giving me the feedback about it. I was proud then. 

And then the second was an entrance exam.  I wanted kids to appear for Navodaya entrance. And that was completely fair. Nothing happened. And kids did well, I guess. Rest, the result will tell. I am hoping for the best. I took some parents along with me. And while the kids were giving their Exam, I was chit chatting with the parents. Shared lunch and had chai. It gave me a good contented feeling. 

I felt lonely, at times. There were times when I wanted to vent out. But I did not. Intentionally. Just had an informal conversation with two of my friends. Did not tell them the complete thing. 

I felt like a failure. Especially after the scholarship test. But got rid of that feeling since the next Exam went exactly the way I wanted it to go. 

And then there were times when I felt proud. Yesterday when the kids were waiting for the entrance to start, all the other parents with their kids were taking help of my children to teach them. And I had one mother telling me "Sir, aapke bachche hoshiyar hain!"

Such other incidents happened. And I do not want to disclose them. Let them just remain with me! I want to treasure them forever. 

This week was something, AGAIN! Blessing in disguise truly! Hoping for the best for my kids and everything around me! :)