Zindagi jhand hain! 

Yesterday was one such day that I just cannot forget. I feel like crying right now. It was Independence Day Celebration at school yesterday.  My class had to do 2 things - a classical dance and a speech. 

The classical dance got criticized by the school staff. They all kept saying "kaisa gaana hain yeh" and other things like "Raman sir ki class ki girls kuch khas toh nahin kar rahi" and all. Though all such things just reach my ears and go away from another but yesterday it struck my mind somewhere. Since last year what I just hear in school is criticism about my class. No one has really appreciated my class that much. The only appreciation that I have got is from my managers so far. But that is just one side of the coin. I want the class to be appreciated by whosoever comes and sees them. 

My girls also missed out on one more opportunity - speaking on Independence Day. They had prepared a speech on it. They were all ready to go for it. But then suddenly one staff member in school refused to call them on stage, just because a group that came earlier, stumbled a little. That teacher was like "sir, rehene do, kuch mat karao, bachche bhul rahe hain and all"! I kept quiet and took steps back. 

The chief guest later appreciated our TFI team in school and said he has never seen kids speaking such nice English in other schools. I was happy to listen to that and thought that my school staff has got its lesson. But at the same time I was really very disappointed that my class missed out on this opportunity. The opportunity to get appreciation from someone outside school, from a person working with the Government. 

I think its also because of me that since I remained quiet that moment and agreed with whatever that teacher said. 

Even Gayatri did not seem much happy with my girls' performance. 

And yesterday, there was no one with whom I could share all of this. And I am really depressed right now. 

But life has to go on. I am eating breakfast right now and writing all this. And just now mom said "Raman, tu itna chup chup kyun rehene lag gaya hain! Bolna hi bhul gaya hain!" And I am thinking "kya bolun! zindagi jhand hain!" 

When I am idle, I just do anything! 

All credit goes to today's holiday, I actually opened up previous albums and was just flipping through the pictures when suddenly I found this one:-

I do not know why it is getting uploaded like this :P But still :P 

Haha :D 

The August Post! 

My life is just circling around plans, school, meetings, sleep, and eating food! That's all I do these days. Its okay! :)

Last week, I'd gone mad. On Saturday, I took my role models out for a lunch at Mc. Donalds, Model Town. They were really excited. Post that I wanted to spend some more time out and did not want to return home. Prince's father had invited me for dinner at his place, but firstly I thought he was joking.  He was not. he had called me like 10 times to be at his place in the evening. I did not want to go, since it was too far . And I thought, even if I go, where will I spend the time till evening 7 PM. But his father just did not agree. 

So, I agreed to go to his place. And by the time we finished lunch at Mc. D's it was 4. I went back to drop the kids back home. And then came back to the metro to board it till Jahangirpuri where Prince lives. But I did not take the metro. I just dropped Apoorva and came back. I thought I'd spend some more time in the community. So, I went. I met Sonu Bhaiya, who has given me the space in the community for extra classes. Just talked to him about housing and all. And then went to Dipika's house. Talked to her parents for sometime. Met Chandan who really likes studying and started insisting me to take his tuition as well. I just kept on talking and talking. And then when I saw my watch, it was 7:30. 

Prince's father called me again. I had no other option as to go to his place for dinner. So, I went there. Met the entire family and enjoyed the delicious food which was prepared since I was coming. I was so embarrassed. But at the same time, I was just happy as well. 

I reached home at 10 PM that day. What a day! I do not know how life would be after another 9 months when I will have to leave. Its going to be hard! Yes, definitely!