Zindagi jhand hain! 

Yesterday was one such day that I just cannot forget. I feel like crying right now. It was Independence Day Celebration at school yesterday.  My class had to do 2 things - a classical dance and a speech. 

The classical dance got criticized by the school staff. They all kept saying "kaisa gaana hain yeh" and other things like "Raman sir ki class ki girls kuch khas toh nahin kar rahi" and all. Though all such things just reach my ears and go away from another but yesterday it struck my mind somewhere. Since last year what I just hear in school is criticism about my class. No one has really appreciated my class that much. The only appreciation that I have got is from my managers so far. But that is just one side of the coin. I want the class to be appreciated by whosoever comes and sees them. 

My girls also missed out on one more opportunity - speaking on Independence Day. They had prepared a speech on it. They were all ready to go for it. But then suddenly one staff member in school refused to call them on stage, just because a group that came earlier, stumbled a little. That teacher was like "sir, rehene do, kuch mat karao, bachche bhul rahe hain and all"! I kept quiet and took steps back. 

The chief guest later appreciated our TFI team in school and said he has never seen kids speaking such nice English in other schools. I was happy to listen to that and thought that my school staff has got its lesson. But at the same time I was really very disappointed that my class missed out on this opportunity. The opportunity to get appreciation from someone outside school, from a person working with the Government. 

I think its also because of me that since I remained quiet that moment and agreed with whatever that teacher said. 

Even Gayatri did not seem much happy with my girls' performance. 

And yesterday, there was no one with whom I could share all of this. And I am really depressed right now. 

But life has to go on. I am eating breakfast right now and writing all this. And just now mom said "Raman, tu itna chup chup kyun rehene lag gaya hain! Bolna hi bhul gaya hain!" And I am thinking "kya bolun! zindagi jhand hain!"