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I remember having the same title of a blog post last year. But at that time I was confused. This time its because of the stress. I am very confused these days actually. I long for taking a break from work when i am working, but when I really do not enjoy not working. 

I took time off this Sunday (normally I am at home and working) and went out with my mom. I went out to a place which was beautiful. But I did not seem to be enjoying there at all. I wanted to come back home. I have become such a monotonous person. 

I did not let my mother also enjoy the place. Though she was satisfied with whatever we did in the 1 hour of the outing. But I am feeling guilty now.

As far as I know myself, I am a result oriented person, And these days I am not seeing much of results in my work, which is why I am not enjoying anything. I really need to change this thing in me. Don't know if it is a good trait or a bad one. Being self critical is something that I like personally, but it seems to be affecting other aspects of my life.

Please, help me!!!!!