Meeting the Parents! ;) 

I had a superb PTM today in school. I was not expecting many parents to turn up for this, as usual. So today I decided to call them up. And soon I had all the parents in the class. I wanted this PTM to be like the ones I used to have in my school..well organized, planned and wanted the parents to go happy this time. They have always heard complaints about their kids, so today I thought "let me share some happiness with them :) " and discussed a lot about the positives in their kids.

Babloo's mother, as always came to school, the first one to hear from me, stressed out and expecting complaints. But for the first time today, she did not hear any complaint today but all positives. And for the first time today I saw her smiling, happy about his son and went back home really confident. Babloo has become a calmer kid off lately. So, I told his mother that I have seen a lot of changes in him. 

Babloooooo <3  

Last time I kept a PTM, Komal's mother turned up. She was not happy. Not because of her daughter, but because of her family issues, domestic violence in particular.  I was not happy to hear that. I always kept on forcing Komal to study hard. I was not understanding her trend of being emergent, forgetting things all the time, getting distracted for no reasons at all. Talking to her mother, I understood everything. Why she keeps fainting, why she gets so emotional at times. Everything. I tried to explain. But I did not know what exact steps should I give to her mom, since it was their family issue. 

This time her father turned up. And I wanted to get angry, I wanted to scold him. But from him, I got to know the other side of the coin. And I did not know again what to tell him. Right now, what I am wondering is this thing, "all these issues are making Komal so depressed, so unhappy! These issues are spoiling her childhood. 

I did not know what to say to her, when her mother cried the last time we met. I did not know what to tell her when today her father was in tears today. The only thing that I can do right now is just pray for her. And ask God to give her all the blessings - to have a happy life, a happy childhood! 

Komal <3

Gulabsa's mother was her usual self. "Ghar pe mehman hain, kyun pareshan karte ho mujhe! :D" And with that sarcasm intact. :D She is one woman who is really fond of me,  I think. Her daughter also. :) 

Gulabsa <3 (Do not have her picture. :( ) 

And then Deepika and Raja. Their mother was also stressed out but was happy that she did not hear any complaints today. Only positives! :) 

 




Happy about today's PTM! :) Hope it gets better and better with time! ;)
Amen!! :)

Have nothing to write, but still! :P 

Yeah, there are days when you just do not want to do anything! I want to do something, yet not wishing to do anything. So, here I am writing a blog! :D 

I had a "superb bad" day in class today. I do not understand why Mondays are like that. I cannot recall even a single Monday which went well in class. Why? Am I not planned well? No, I am! Do I feel like working on a Monday? No, probably not! And may be the same thing even my kids also feel. So, today I thought I will keep it light for the kids. And I did. They said they did not want an extra class during the lunch break and I agreed, thinking they will have a tough time in school today. I wish I could make Mondays even more lighter and funny for the kids so that my kids are all refreshed for the entire week. 

I got my Math class videotaped today. And seriously, I look very funny when I teach! I seriously need to work upon certain gestures of mine when I am teaching. Have thought of certain things, let me see how much I implement them. 

At times, I think what my kids need is a total break from me. Thanks to the summer break that's just approaching! They will get a total break from me, the schedule and everything. But somehow I feel bad when I think that my kids need break from me. I keep thinking about them and want them to do the same. I do not know what they will be doing right now back in their houses. Are they studying right now? Sleeping? Roaming around? Or what? What percentage of the day do they think about me? 

I do not know how much I will be able to do for them this year. No matter what, I want them to remember me for the rest of their lives. If I get to meet them after some years, I want them to tell everything about them with a pride. I do want them to do what their parents are doing. I want them to have a better living. A better future! A better life! I want them to have clear, broad minds, respect for every individual, respect for themselves and above all, a faith in themselves that they can do something in life, can fight all challenges, and live a life full of happiness! <3

That's it! 

Cheers to the last Evening! :) 

Had a nice time out with two of my buddies yesterday! It was an unusual evening in many ways:-

a) I was out not for conferences/meetings, but for chilling. 

b) I went to the other side of the town, very far away from mine.

c) I went for a BEER PARTY! :P Yay, now I can say that I did this..

2nd time out with friends for a "drinking party". The first one happened last year. :P

 I never liked this idea of meeting friends for a drink. But yesterday when I was myself doing it, I realized why people do it. Its such a break from the mundane life. For sometime, I was not stressing out. I was not thinking about my life. I was not thinking anything. I was just "me". Listening to soft music at a balcony surrounded by a beautiful green tree, while sipping in beer. It was a great evening. And ofcourse, the Masala Grill that we three had in the evening, added to the beauty of the evening! :P

And that's me----->>>

For I know, some people would need a proof for this! :P Haha :D 

Thanks for the lovely evening, my friends. 

Ajit! :) 

This boy suddenly left school last year, in the middle. Suddenly disappeared. For reasons that I still do not know. Family could not be contacted. House locked. Everything! I gave up! I was angry, upset and never wanted to see him again!

And now all of a sudden, my kids meet his brother. And the brother tells my kids "Ajit's teacher back in his village beats him up everyday, and he proudly tells his teacher "mere Raman Bhaiya aur Harish Sir mujhe itna sab padhate the..mujhe itna sab kuch aata hain..tum toh bas maar sakte ho..mujhe Raman Bhaiya ne itni stories di hain!" 

And my kids told me the same thing. And hearing this, my heart stopped for a bit. For I got so angry with the kid, just by the fact that he did not come back to me. I never knew that he loves me so much!

 And suddenly I am missing him, I want him back! I just want to apologize for I got angry with him! And I shouldn't have! 

He is a gem and will always be! <3

Straight from Ode to Seelampur....sound of magic!!!! 

And on Team Umang! 

As I am writing this post, I am actually thinking about the entire day. Such a special day it had been. The first part of the day at Step-by-Step school, seeing the other side of the World, and then the later part, again back to our side of the world, which did not seem any less than the one I saw in the first part of the day! What a sight! :D Truly amazed by the talents of the tiny tots! 

Kids performing on Matilda and such flawless expressions and English! <3 I was so happy see to our kids no less than the kids at the Step-by-Step school. Awesome effort by the Fellows of TFI. 

And then Umang. What a show! What a play! What a Director! What a Team! Especially the confidence with which the kids presented themselves was truly awesome. And the moment of the day---I was sticking charts on the wall, and Roy's girls suddenly came and asked, "Bhaiya, you need any help?" WOW! 

Our kids are definitely progressing towards great heights where they have the utmost confidence to fearlessly present themselves and at the same time have "in-place" moral values to prove that they are real humans who care about others. 

I am really happy to be a part of this family! :) <3 And hope that I also get to do something like this in the near future! :) 

On Class V and my kids gaining adolescence!

Few weeks into Class V, and I am suddenly seeing a lot of changes in my tiny-minny creatures with whom I started this journey an year back. 

Suddenly, my kids have talking about stuff that I do not know how to deal with. It took me one entire week to deal with one of these issues that cropped up with a girl, Deepika. She has not been her normal self since 1-2 months. I was trying to think about the possible reasons but I could not get anything. Talking to her parents also, I could not get what was bothering her. She was suddenly becoming very girlish. From a confident girl, she was becoming a shy girl. Not responding back to whatever I used to ask her. Just standing there in front of me, silent and smiling, and doing nothing. 

Last to last week, her close friends in my class told me that one of the boys in her colony was teasing her. I was so shocked to hear this. For that moment I just told them to not tell this to anybody and quietly sent back home. I talked about this with my co-fellow in school and asked her for suggestions on exactly what should I be telling Deepika in such a case. She said just ask her to ignore that guy, but if the guys continues teasing, ask her to tell him that she is a little girl and wants to study. I did this. And Deepika did follow my advice. 

The teasing still did not stop. Her friends again came and told me that the guy is not stopping at all. At that moment, only one thing came to my mind-Talking about this with her parents. And I did. I simply told them to take care of her a little more, dropping and picking her up from school. That's all! 

The parents were unhappy that Deepika herself did not tell them about this and Deepika was unhappy with me that I shared this with her parents. She stopped talking to me. So much so that she did not even wish me good morning, or smiled at me. And this made me so unhappy within.

Her mother came the next day and started crying in front of me. She told me that Deepika's father had scolded her the previous day. I was unhappy to hear this as well. I had told them explicitly not to scold her or get angry with her. But they did. 

I finally decided to have a long conversation with Deepika. I kept on talking to her, wanting to get answers, wanting her to talk to me. But she did not say a single word. I was getting angry. But suddenly, my co-fellow intervened and she talked to her. She took Deepika away from me and talked to her. I could see Deepika talking to her. I could see her getting back to her normal self. I could see her smiling a little. She came back to me, shook hands and we were friends again. Her mother was smiling too. 

What extra/special did my co-fellow do which I could not? I am still thinking about this. As a teacher, it was my duty to tell her parents about it since I am not with her after 1 PM. The real care takers are the parents.

So many mood changes are happening in her. Yesterday, she suddenly said this to one of her friends and I heard, "Padhai Likhai kisi kaam ki nahin!" and this left me questioned again! 

May be Deepika will understand me when she grows up a little and when she will be able to think from my perspective. For me, she is one gem of my class and will always be! <3 <3  

HOLIDAYS HOMEWORK PREPARED! 

And this gives me a sense of accomplishment for this day!  And my dear rockstars, you will be shocked to see a close to 30 pages homework for these holidays! LOL..But I am sure you will enjoy it since I have tried to give things apart from just English and Math. 

Preparing this was a problem. And right now, so many changes needs to be done. Who will think about differentiated homework, me? Ofcourse yes, who else? :D Have a look:- 

 God, my kids and their different levels. And so, different home works. But still, happy that atleast the first copy is ready. 

ROCKSTARS, you better finish this during holidays! :D  

CRAVING FOR CHOCOLATY STUFF!! 

I do not know why but these holidays make me starve for chocolaty stuff! :P Since morning today, I was after my mom for some chocolates or stuff made out of chocolates. My mother does not like chocolates. So convincing her was a big deal! eeeww..But I did..and that was the moment of the day!! :) We both went for a hot chocolate fudge! 

But right now I am just wondering, how can some people not like chocolates and stuff having chocolate. Just have a look at these pictures.....

                                   

 


How can someone not like these?? :O :O  I am suddenly craving for some more chocolate. Hahaha :D

Chocolates are my real stress relievers. They make me feel happy for reasons that even I wonder. If someone asks me to list down the things that I cannot live without, chocolates will definitely be on that list.

By the way, I just realized, today my mom and sis-in-law cooked things that I like. Morning it was sandwiches, afternoon biryani, fudge in the evening and then shahi paneer right now.. Uuu maa maa..:D Is it my birthday today? Nooo..then what?

Ohhh I got it!! I am 100% no 1,000% sure that I am getting one of these tomorrow...:P

Yuuccckk!! I'll never have it! :P Okay mom, don't worry..I have special plans for tomorrow! Haha :D 

MANTRA TO MY HAPPINESS - Gift me as many chocolates as you can and I will smile as much as I can! ;) 

Tadaa! :) 

MY IDEA OF A PERFECT HOLIDAY! :P 

Today was a HOLIDAY! And what I did...Wakeup.eat.sleep.eat.sleep.eat.sleep, so on and so on and so on! :D Hahaha :D Though now I am wide awake! :D  And for the first time in my life, I am happy saying that I did not do anything today! And this also reminds me that I have lots to do before I go to school tomorrow. Have to prepare holiday homework as RAHUL KUMAR, one of my school kids will disappear from tomorrow. He is going back to his village for summer vacation. But has the vacation started? Nooooo, then why is he going so early?? :P Rahul Kumar, you have taken a huge risk. Extra homework for you! Haha :D 

Work, Work and Work!! Tadaaa...:D 

MYSELF! 

Something that I also would like to mention today is me!  Its been an year working in TFI and I have seen a lot of changes in me. I was here to enhance my leadership skills. I do not know much about it, but yeah have to talk about the physical changes happening. 

1) my hair have turned so grey! :P 

2) I have gained a lot of weight! :P 

3) And I look so stupid and dumb!!!! :P 

Just have a look:- (Quite a lot, haha! :D ) 

Anway, will be changing this soon! :) 

Thinking of What to do!! 

Hollliiidaaayy tomorrow! I feel so happy when I get these "notmeanttobehoidays"! I do not even know what is it tomorrow, some Jayanti as the teachers in the school were saying. But its okay! :) 

But this is what makes me feel depressed "What to do when you get such holidays?" Gosh, I do not get any ideas except some or the other pending work. I am such a dumbo!! :P eeeeeeeeeee!! 

Today after such a long time, I had a healthy discussion with one of my class boys - GULSHAN. I never got  connected with this kid of my class. But last night, something made me think about him. I had not properly talked to this boy since quite a long time. I was early to school today and so was he. I thought that was the right time when we both could share about our lives. 

Talking to him, I got to know about two things:- 

1) His mother is in his village and that he has not seen his mother for a long time now and that he misses her. 

2) He misses his mother so much that he wants to go back to his village and stay with her only. 

Something struck me that moment. I realized that I had been so cruel to him. He has not been very regular to school and I would always scold him not knowing the reality. As a teacher, sometimes what I just think of isjust my purpose of being at TFI, teaching and bridging the gap. But I do not think of things from the perspective of  kid. I really have to try thinking being in their shoes. 

I felt happy that he shared with me what he had in his heart. And I just could not resist myself saying this to him "think I am your mother and share everything that goes in your mind and in your heart!" 

Gulshan, I love you! <3 May you achieve lots of success in your life!! :) 

The new life! Yessss :D

Finally, back to what I like the most -- WRITING! :P and now I am going to be writing every bit of what I feel, what my days are like (and I am going to sharing the happy moments and not the depressing ones, enough depression for an year :P) and everything thing else! Yohooo :)

Just got reminded of something that happened today in my class:-

I was getting angry during the lunch break! Well, my usual self almost everytime when I am in school. :P And then suddenly, this is what happened:-

Gulabsa: Sir, my mom says you look very bootiful! :P (that's how she said it, haha :D ) 

And so stupid of me , rather than saying something or atleast smiling at what she said, what I was thinking was this:- 

"Oh Shit, I am so stupid, I did not teach them 'handsome'!" Haha :D 

Crazyy man!! :D 

But Gulabsa, my love, this is for you:- 

"A Big Huuuugg" <3 <3