Here's to an amazing 2013! Bidding you good bye! 

Just read Roy's status update in which I was tagged. It feels good when someone gives you some credit for his/her good time! I would like to do the same...but not as a status update but by writing here. I am actually going to think a lot (or not) about how this year was! 

First of all, I would like to thank some people for all their love and support every time when I wanted someone around me! 

1. The Almighty - Above all, since He is the one who is behind all these people! He sent all these people in my life! So, thank you so much God for this life and for always sending someone for me whenever I was in any trouble! 

2. Family - I know I have not given my 100% to people at home this year. I have been very negligent in understanding situations at home, have not attended many get-togethers, have missed out a lot of "family time" which I used to do before. I have listened to you all complaining, having problems with the way I work, my decisions that I took mid way, but there was not even a single time you criticized me as a person! Thanks for always supporting me papa, mummy, bhai(s), Tanu and bhabhi's, and all kids at home (for bearing the anguish I had when you guys did not let me do what I wanted to do! :P) 

*Teachers - because of whom I am what I am today. 

3. Friends (no order)

a) All TFI friends around - (not in any particular order)  Ashwathi, Rahul, Roy, Shanky, Mansi J, Sam, my dearest school team (Apoorva, Robin and Sangitha), Sajid, Vignesh, Gayatree di, Shruti, Patricia, Anurag, Pritha, Shobhali, Prathik, Nivritti, Aarshiya, Saumya M, Surabhi, Rashi (projector girl :D ), Neha A, Tushar S, Ashmita, Nikita K,  Priyanka Sharma, Akshit Gupta, Rinky di..!  You guys really gave that listening ear to me when I wanted to vent out.

*Some teachers whom I trained..I really want to thank you all for believing in everything I did with you all!

b) College friends - Shuchi, thanks so much for always being there. Prerna, Sonam, Sanjala, Anupam and Mishra for keeping me updated about all the rest of us! And for keeping me connected with your world and all people associated with it! 

c) School friends - Vishnu, Rashi, Saman and Anjali! Do I need to even mention what you guys have been doing with me since more than a decade now? :P

d) New people I met - Apoorva, Robin, Sangitha (you guys have been mentioned before since I just do not get the "new" feeling with you all! One team we are!  Sushruti, Sambhrant :) Sukriti (ma'am :D) , for being a part of TFI now! . Rohan, for you are one of your kind! :P 

4. Kids (My kids, yes they are) - An awesome bunch of 35 kids, you guys have taken over me :P, but surely have taught me a lot of things! You do not know, but all discussions with me on my personal development revolves around you and your development only! :D 

This year brought with it lots of moments where I was super excited about everything that was going on and at the same time got lots of downfalls as well. Rejections, some broken friendships, and a lot of other stuff! From tears arising out of some issue, to tears because of happiness and success, from hearing criticisms from people to hearing appreciation for my work from those same people only and others, from fighting at home because of the stress to then resolving those fights, THIS YEAR GOT SO MUCH! 

This year was something, truly!Lets see what 2014 has for me! :) 

Lunch at Mc. D's, evening snacks at Fast Trax and Dinner at Dominos! Ha! 

This problem of mine..yes it does seem like a problem only now since I just cannot get rid of it inspite of the fact that its not good! Too much junk! I eat out everyday! Ah...! Too much junk in my stomach! And then this also goes up to the brain! lol :D 

Anyway, let me think about the resolution I took just day before yesterday. While talking to S, I promised myself that I am not going to eat out at all..and I would really remain stuck to the promise for a long time. And see here's what happened. Yesterday I came to visit my brother at Faridabad! He allured me to eat out by mentioning all amazing things they have been eating out nearby. So, I just forgot what I promised to myself and ate momos and spicy paneer roll. And I was glad that I broke the promise since it was actually too yummy! ummm! :D 

And then today...I started my day by eating some heavy breakfast! And in the morning I told myself while I was combing my hair in front of the mirror that I will not eat out at all! And today during my meeting with all the 3 S's I know..I ate out! First Mc. Aloo tikki meal in the afternoon, then chicken tikka wrap at Fast Trax and then Zesty Chicken Cheese Burst Pizza at Dominos! 

This was about what I ate and what went in my stomach. The other thing is about what went in my mind after conversing to these three S's in my life! With the first S, I got this point "I have to be a cool dude! " . With the second S, I got this "I look like a bachcha!" and with the third S, I got "Life has changed for me, but certainly not what the first two S felt about me!" Lol :D 

And actually these two are the only things that  come out when I talk to anyone around me! Some things never changed for me! Sigh! 

Enough said. 

Holidays and then all "happening" in life gone! 

Ya, this time I was waiting for the holidays very desperately! I so wanted to relax and not do/think about anything! And it has started happening! And I wanted that! And now here comes the irony..I wanted some "idleness" in life..was craving for it..but now I again feel like getting busy and its just day 2 of the vacation !Lol :D 

Anyway, Christmas gone yesterday! And this year my Christmas was fantastic! Obviously kids made it for me! Thanks to them for such a fun last day in school! 

No one has ever done a cake for me on my birthday, except family ofcourse! This time my kids did it for me! And I was completely surprised with this gesture! Life can be super sweet at times! 

But this year Christmas was very different. Every year I celebrate it at home, by having some hot soup with pav bhaji/cake/some Punjabi delicacy! Lots of people wish me! But this year, very few wished! And then there was no celebration at all at home, except the usual decoration of the tree! No special preparations/ anything at all! And I spent time with one of my college friends who I thought was not enjoying my company! Ha! I thought it was his bad idea to meet "me" on a X-mas day when everyone just wanna enjoy! I have become an anti-celebration person anyway! 

So, that's done! Just have some pics which I would be sharing here for they mean so much! 

:) 

Nearing end! Oh Really? 

I cannot believe so many things are nearing their end. This year will come to an end in just a few days. And 2014 will start. When I look back at this year, I strongly feel that it has really got so many ups for me, and at the same time so many downs! So this year is kinda balanced for me in terms of the number of successes and failures! 

One more major thing that's nearing an end is this FELLOWSHIP! 2 more weeks in this Unit, and then one more Unit! And I am done! Total 8 weeks only! Kind of! Not more than that..considering we get so many holidays also. And then the end of my journey with my kids! I do not know how it is going to be. Then I am going to go to the SECONDARY school with either the boys or the girls of my class. Just do not know how things are going to be over there. I visited that school today and I was so shocked to see the atmosphere over there and it really made me think the life of my kids post I leave. It will not be easy! Or will it be? I do not know!  

But then I should not be just talking about the ends. With every end, comes a beginning. But as of now I do not really know what's next for me. I feel okay with the kind of encouragement I get from people around me. Not too tensed and at the same time not too excited about things. Just going with the flow these days. 

Sigh! So many thoughts in my mind as of now! Contemplating! Time to go for a walk! 

An eventful life! 

Last 2 weeks have been too much! And they comprised of both ups and downs for you. And I have mixed feelings right now! 

Starting from the TAL session that I had to lead at the conference. When I did it the first time at P's group meeting, I did not get a good feedback! Had to change it all over again and then execute at the conference! How can I forget the wedding that week! And then resources preparation for this session! Sitting for long hours (firstly alone and then with A)! Such a hectic work! But I wanted to do it as I thought it was cool! So, did it! Conference was okay! Could have been better! There is a scope for improvement always! 

And then my girls! They have got the guts seriously! S was making them learn a new prayer. They had done just half of it but then decided to sing it in the school in front of like 100 other kids and staff, without even informing anyone! And when they started singing it, my mouth was wide open! Was a huge surprise! :) Right now feeling really proud of them! And then one of my girls finally told me everything about her life, and why she had been so stressful for so long! Thumbs up to the open discussions I had with girls of my class on Friday! Hoping to lead such discussions with their parents as well! 

And then one happy moment - one of these days when I was not well in school, my Hindi teacher prepared Lemon tea for me! Next day he came and said, "Raman Sir, aapse subah subah baat ho jaati hain toh din achcha kat jaata hain!" Haha! :D I felt too happy! 

My kids celebrated Asha's birthday on Saturday! Such a lovely surprise they had planned for her! :) 

And then Metro walk on very same day! Kids were just too much excited! Could see that in their eyes! But that day I got a little upset when there Tanu started crying! I just did not understand why and she did not even share with me the reason. Talked to her mother when I left her home that day. Even then she did not say a word. Though she was happy that time. Also, Shivani requested me to travel with S didi only. I was like why could not they do that with me! But they loved the old man at Pind Baluchi's! And here we were:- 

And then some boys of my class, just not ready to break the ice and mend their ways of doing certain things! All this will take time probably! I have lots to do on their investment! Even more! Will continue applying new strategies! 

But then I am also happy about certain other things. My kids saw and tasted a pizza for the first time! Enjoyed it to the core! Hope to give them such moments in the future as well! 

But ofcourse, not totally happy! But I am sure I am going to get total happiness soon! :) 

My class kids! Planned a surprise today for their own classmate  ~ Kajol! :D 

Today we celebrated Kajol's birthday in school. I had decided to keep it normal like any other day of my class. But my kids were all set for celebrating her birthday! They told me the plans they had for her birthday. Soni managed getting one two chocolates and a candle. She put those chocolates first on a plate,and the n affixed the candle in between the chocolates. All kids joined in and I was the cameraman clicking pictures of them while they were all getting ready to wish her a happy birthday! :) 

I love them! And these are the ones who made me the happiest in the last two years! <3

JOY!!!!!!!

I need joy in life, in my class, everywhere in everything I do! That's it!!! 

Life is not the same as before! 

21.10.13 (Just want to remember this date ever! ) :) 

The familiar world is suddenly strange and wonderful. Maybe you want to explore it; maybe you'll stay still and let it wash over you. Follow your instinct and you can't go wrong.

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5 more months! :O

Is this a joke? So much is to be done...! I want more time!! 

No, let it be this much! I will do something with it! 

Food for thought! 

R ~ You do not have the fire in your heart to study, to do something in life! 

B ~ Bhaiya, mere mann mein aag aa gayi! 

G ~ Bhaiya hum ek kaam karte hain, ghar jaa kar apne mann mein mitti ka tel daal denge..aag aa jayegi! 

#Rofl! 

A ~ Bhaiya, my sister loves A didi and S didi.

R ~ Nobody loves me! 

A ~ I love you na, bhaiya! 

#so sweet!! 

Yes, I am lost! 

While writing today's date on the board in my class, my jaw dropped. And then when I had to describe the feeling, I could not resist making a worried face. And the face said "Oh my God! Its October!" 

I am now just 6 months away from the end. End of the Fellowship for me. Though I will go the secondary school with a section of my class, but since that is not the entire class..so yeah, Fellowship will seem to have ended only. 

There is so much that goes on in my mind. All four buckets. Academics being the slowest one now. And then such high expectations. I think I will die someday before the journey ends for me! haha :D 

But ya, I am surely going to miss something when I leave this place. Kids, a lot. And also, people I met. Beautiful mindsets who would make me feel happy whenever I just wanted to feel happy about things. But ya, there are people who hate me too. And that's everywhere.

This last week was something. All of a sudden, I am getting that positive air everywhere. And my superstitions indicate its not a good sign. I will start flying in the air. Not a good sign. Results are not here. I would love to get all the credit at the end, when something happens. Not now, for sure. Too early to say anything as of now, I believe. 

October also reminds that I am just a month away from coming back home. And there is still so much to accomplish before I come back and start thinking about the next turn in the path. 

October is going to be heavy. But I hope I am able to get something at the end of the month. Get a little more clarity. My kids keep learning. But at a better pace than this, man! 5 months they have with me. When will they understand this?? o_O

Has been an insane week! 

I really do not have words to describe how this week went. It has been insane, that's all I can say. I am feeling disturbed today. I do not know for what. But ya something has been going in my mind since last night. I have changed a lot. I believe. The changes are so damn visible in me. What are these changes for? And where am I going towards? I do not understand. 

But one thing I know...I am not repeating these same mistakes! 

Weekly Post!

Hope for the best and chuck the rest! 

So, I am going to write weekly posts from now onwards. I think I have to start venting out on a weekly basis, since everyday this is just not possible..:P 

Last week for me was an eye opener. When I left the place in Rohini and told parents that I shall manage everything, they told me, living alone is not a child's play. And that no time will be saved since I will have to do many extra things. True that. Last week I actually had a lot to manage at home, and so I could not give my 100% to a lot of things. 

Last week had glows as well. I gave 100% to BBL (do not know how much the team there is satisfied with the work, but I am sure they must have got something), I planned everyday, managed "household" - yess, this is one added task :D, took a session at Prathik's meet and ya many others. Got some (all of a sudden :D) appreciation from Prathik and Safdar. Thanks to them :)  And this always helps me in some or the other way! 

And then last week had a lot in it which was disappointing for me. I had to get a place on rent in the community, had to meet Mr. Sonu, pushed myself one day, went half way and then came back. All this happened because of that idiot xerox guy, he pissed me off badly. And then I did not look after my emergent kids after school/ during school hours. This is something that I just cannot avoid at this point of time. And then the PT guy in our school threatening me that if I would not teach in his class, he would get orders from Principal ma'am. This was too much, actually! And then, the studying bit! I could not achieve my targets last week, had to give a practice test as well, which I could not do. 

Oh, then some people making fun of me in front of some others. That was super depressing. I do not know why I got depressed though since I am a person made fun of, very often. But somehow that was too much, I think! 

So, while coming back to parents' on Friday, I was super depressed because all this was going on in my mind. Was feeling unaccomplished. 

Anyway, hope this week I am able to do all of what I could not do last week. Lets hope for the best and chuck the rest :P. I think this should be my policy now. 

Also, I have made a donations page for my class and the link is  http://www.giveindia.org/iGive-theclassofchallengers

I really need donations to do a lot for my class this year. Help me in anyway you can, please! 

Thanksss! Week 2, Unit 3 here you begin! :)

I know I am a man full of problems!

A man full of problems! 

I do not understand why people keep reminding me of the fact that I have so many loopholes in me as a person. I also do not understand why they have not realized the fact that I also agree with them in whatever loopholes they see in me. 

I do not understand why they can't just guide me to be better. Fine, I have problems. And every human being has. If rather than making fun of it, they'd tell me something about how I can rectify it, it would be very great. 

These loopholes have remained in me since quite a long time now. And I have been wanting to get rid of the problems in me since then, I believe. I take steps but they have not not made a long lasting impact! 

There are already a thousand things going on in my head right now. There is so much to do. And I feel like a shit these days since nothing is happening. Rather than giving me steps about how I can go about doing so much, they want to see some other aspect in me. :'( 

On changing the house! :)

After a long time, and so much happened! Life has changed the track! :P 

Ah, it seems as if I am writing after like ages. Ya, because so much has happened since I wrote last! I have started living in a house close to my school. Its really overwhelming, but ya one thing that I will never forget for life! 

Crossing the road to reach to the school, roaming in the streets in the late hours, friends coming home, washing clothes, figuring out food, water and everything else. This is one phase of life. Chandan coming home in the evening.  

I feel relaxed but at the same time really nervous about the fact that I have to make something out of the time I am living outside. BTCP is on a halt. So many meetings. So much to do in the class, with the kids. So many goals to accomplish. A lot to do, in nutshell. 

I am managing so much. Just wondering, all this should not turn out to be like a jack of all, and master of none case. It will not be good.

Zindagi jhand hain! 

Yesterday was one such day that I just cannot forget. I feel like crying right now. It was Independence Day Celebration at school yesterday.  My class had to do 2 things - a classical dance and a speech. 

The classical dance got criticized by the school staff. They all kept saying "kaisa gaana hain yeh" and other things like "Raman sir ki class ki girls kuch khas toh nahin kar rahi" and all. Though all such things just reach my ears and go away from another but yesterday it struck my mind somewhere. Since last year what I just hear in school is criticism about my class. No one has really appreciated my class that much. The only appreciation that I have got is from my managers so far. But that is just one side of the coin. I want the class to be appreciated by whosoever comes and sees them. 

My girls also missed out on one more opportunity - speaking on Independence Day. They had prepared a speech on it. They were all ready to go for it. But then suddenly one staff member in school refused to call them on stage, just because a group that came earlier, stumbled a little. That teacher was like "sir, rehene do, kuch mat karao, bachche bhul rahe hain and all"! I kept quiet and took steps back. 

The chief guest later appreciated our TFI team in school and said he has never seen kids speaking such nice English in other schools. I was happy to listen to that and thought that my school staff has got its lesson. But at the same time I was really very disappointed that my class missed out on this opportunity. The opportunity to get appreciation from someone outside school, from a person working with the Government. 

I think its also because of me that since I remained quiet that moment and agreed with whatever that teacher said. 

Even Gayatri did not seem much happy with my girls' performance. 

And yesterday, there was no one with whom I could share all of this. And I am really depressed right now. 

But life has to go on. I am eating breakfast right now and writing all this. And just now mom said "Raman, tu itna chup chup kyun rehene lag gaya hain! Bolna hi bhul gaya hain!" And I am thinking "kya bolun! zindagi jhand hain!" 

When I am idle, I just do anything! 

All credit goes to today's holiday, I actually opened up previous albums and was just flipping through the pictures when suddenly I found this one:-

I do not know why it is getting uploaded like this :P But still :P 

Haha :D 

The August Post! 

My life is just circling around plans, school, meetings, sleep, and eating food! That's all I do these days. Its okay! :)

Last week, I'd gone mad. On Saturday, I took my role models out for a lunch at Mc. Donalds, Model Town. They were really excited. Post that I wanted to spend some more time out and did not want to return home. Prince's father had invited me for dinner at his place, but firstly I thought he was joking.  He was not. he had called me like 10 times to be at his place in the evening. I did not want to go, since it was too far . And I thought, even if I go, where will I spend the time till evening 7 PM. But his father just did not agree. 

So, I agreed to go to his place. And by the time we finished lunch at Mc. D's it was 4. I went back to drop the kids back home. And then came back to the metro to board it till Jahangirpuri where Prince lives. But I did not take the metro. I just dropped Apoorva and came back. I thought I'd spend some more time in the community. So, I went. I met Sonu Bhaiya, who has given me the space in the community for extra classes. Just talked to him about housing and all. And then went to Dipika's house. Talked to her parents for sometime. Met Chandan who really likes studying and started insisting me to take his tuition as well. I just kept on talking and talking. And then when I saw my watch, it was 7:30. 

Prince's father called me again. I had no other option as to go to his place for dinner. So, I went there. Met the entire family and enjoyed the delicious food which was prepared since I was coming. I was so embarrassed. But at the same time, I was just happy as well. 

I reached home at 10 PM that day. What a day! I do not know how life would be after another 9 months when I will have to leave. Its going to be hard! Yes, definitely! 

Me on being so forgetful!

The forgetfulness is getting onto my nerves! 

I am just so sick of the forgetfulness in me these days. Its just getting worse everyday. It actually started up from leaving those assessments bag in an auto and now so many days after that, I forget atleast one thing per day. 

I forget things kids say to me, I forget conversations, I am lost most of the times, while I am talking to people I start thinking about something else. And mostly the thoughts are my kids and classroom. 

This week I had some people visiting my class. Because I was overloaded with a lot of admin work, I forgot to inform the Principal about the visitors and I ended up telling the visitors not to come for the observation. 

All I need right now is reducing the stress level. I need to breathe. I need to exercise. But when? I come back at 6 or 7 PM everyday and then I plan for the next day. When on earth will I find the time for exercising? Uff! 

I am eating way too much. After this one year, I am sure I will become one hippo! Oh no! 

:( 

Just like that!

?!?!?!?!?!

I have been consistently getting up one hour late in the morning. I remember Dimpy complimenting me at Amritsar for getting up early than the decided time.."if you wake up very early (kind of sleep less), this means your mind is at peace"..! And I have been getting up late these days..and yes of course, mind never stops working/thinking about something or the other. So, now I accede with her. 

Last week I have had enough! This week I am hoping things to get better. Literally. I have lots of plans for this week. Have to execute them all. Completely. 

Lost in all the mess around, I completely forgot that I have only 8 more months to go with these kids. Nigam Pratibha, Bhadolla. TFI. I don't know where life will take me after that. Such less time to cross this huge hill! Have to gain strength before I fall down! 

Again that same thought!

A messy morning! Realized that I left assessments of Rinky's class in an auto. And I felt ashamed. For the first time in my life, I did not care about somebody else’s possession. For the very first time. 

And now that same thought is getting profound, deep, getting instilled inside me like anything. Today also my class can’t settle. Can’t settle like the way I want them to. Or any acceptable way. They do not care enough. I have kids crying in class still, telling me that others insult them. I have nothing to say. I feel irresponsible. I feel so low. So depressed. No motivation. No vision set. No sense of possibility. Some kids progressing to the next levels. But most kids still not know where they are going. Why? Why? Why?

The thought is getting deep inside me. Is a barrier to my progress. Kids still do not care. Things are difficult. Yes, they are! 

So soo sooo tired on a Tuesday! 

I know this is not the right way to begin the day, but I am just so tired. Its as if its a Saturday and I am waiting for the day to get done, come back home and just relax for a bit. 

Yesterday was so long! I came back home at around 9 PM. Then had to plan certain things. I got free by 10:30 PM. And then I just wanted to sleep. Slept. Wanted to wake up at 4 but it got delayed by half an hour. Did not work much in the morning. Some things from yesterday are still running in my mind. And I am just so lost. 

Just one thing for today..I just do not want to lose patience today in class. I have been doing this since last week and I am not happy about it. Really have to work on it. Uff. 

Hoping this day to be much much better than yesterday! I so want happy days now! 

Ups and downs! 

Sigh! The day started off really well, exactly like the way I want most days to start. I woke up early. Worked. And then went for a jog. Thanks to RB to motivate me yesterday and making me excited about it! Otherwise, jogging and that too so early is not my cup of tea! But today finally something happened to me as the clock struck 5 and I was out...! Though it was not more than 15 minutes but still for the first time I liked it! 

Was feeling high that time! 

Then school. I was feeling positive for it as well. I was feeling happy in the morning. But then as soon as after assembly I entered the class, I saw my kids in a chaotic state. Some kids running after a lizard, some others having fun and rest running up to me, shouting "Lizard, lizard"! And that pissed me off. Early morning. And I got angry. 

Then did shared reading today. The day worsened when I found out that the kids have forgotten how to write proper answers. Verbally they could answer but when it came to writing, they all made mistakes. 

Then extra class, this boy made me laugh and forget the grudges that I had! 

Uff...

I keep hearing his and Raja's stories in the community. As soon as he sees me, he runs to his mom, and says "Bhaiya, aa gaye!" in such an innocent and excited voice, that I start feeling so happy! This makes my day. And then he never leaves me alone! While I am teaching kids, he comes and sits on my laps, and keep observing me! And I always try to take my eyes away from him, because whenever I see him, I forget my seriousness, and start laughing, and then seeing me every other kid laughs! 

Hmm..hoping to have a better tomorrow! Seriously! 

High Point of the day! :) 

Sunday! :O

Sundays are boring, literally! 

I feel so gloomy on Sundays mostly. There are several reasons as to why I feel so. 

First, I get lazy. The routine life suddenly breaks, which I don't like at all. Next, for many people, Sunday is a fun day, but for me its not. I have to work. But "work from home" is not my cup of tea. 

Next, I feel like talking to somebody, talking as in venting. I wish I could have someone with whom I could vent on a Saturday or a Sunday. Not on chats. But face to face. Not even by sitting in a food court. Somebody who could walk with me and listen to me endlessly. And share happiness with. 

Sigh! Enough said. 

6:55 AM!

When I reached school at 6:55 AM! :O Oh yeah! :D 

Something happened to me yesterday in the morning and I was all set to go to school, like really early! :D Just wanted to see how it is like in the morning, reaching there more than an hour before the actual school timings! And also had a huge pile of notebooks in the class, which I had to check, since I do not get time to do it during school hours! :P 

So, I reached school gate! And it surprised me when I saw that it was locked. eee! And I had 3 real heavy bags...so I was like "What the hell!" And I kept on calling the cleaner inside, but he wouldn't listen! So, there I was...with three bags, myself and a bunch of kids waiting for the door to get opened. 

Thank God, then after some minutes, came Aarti! Even she reaches the school by this time, everyday! WOW! We together then decided to go inside the community and wait there, rather than standing and waiting outside the school gate.  We went inside. And we both saw the other kids of our classroom, walking towards the school. They were surprised to see me there, early in the morning, so even they came and sat with us! 

And then we kept on talking, kids kept joining us, on that little bench where I was sitting. Everyone was noticing me. And I was feeling special. Haha! Below is a photo of us waiting on that little bench and making sad faces! :P

And then finally at 7:45 the gate opened! Later than the usual time! And I was like "yeh sab aaj hi hona tha!" Haha :D But okay its good to have fun at times! 

Ooohhh!  

Bad day! :'(

Had a bad day today! :'( 

Though I woke up on time, 4:30 AM, finished the works that I had, was early to school, was prepared, but still had a bad day. Various reasons for it.

 First, I just do not understand this boy, Raja of my class. His trend. Pattern. Sometimes he would act like a super sweet child and at other times, he would just not listen. I totally lost my patience today in dealing with them. He did exactly opposite things that I'd asked him to do today. When I asked him, not to say answers while others are trying, he would say the answer twice. While I told him, that I will not send anyone for play today, he intentionally asked for it. And then promised that he would get back on time. But came late. I was just so angry with him today. Refused to talk to him while I was leaving the school.

And then people pulling my leg, I do not know for what. Was it just for kidding purpose, or whether they really meant it, I just do not understand. And then extra work back at home, which really pissed me off. I just do not like doing something that's not in my plan..but still had to do two three things which were not planned before. 

And right now, I have completely lost it! Eyes are almost shut, I am just typing whatever is coming to my mind, without any processing of the information at all, and I am totally gone! 

Good night Raman Bahl! 

Today has been one insane day! Felt pushed, happy but now really exhausted!

One Insane day! 

Today has been one insane day, totally man! Woke up at 5: 30, first of all, late than my usual time, which messed me up early in the morning.  I had some work for the morning today, but I could not do it. So, had totally lost it. Somehow, started feeling normal, so got ready, went to the school, and there I saw, waiting for me, AJITTTTTT, and I was just like "Okaaayy, wow!! This kid is back!" I have mentioned about this kid of mine in one of my posts...and I was so excited to see him in school. Such pleasure it was, to see him! Made my day. 

This pushed me so much that I was really very energetic throughout the day. I was so happy to be in class. Teach my kids. Though execution was not up to the mark, but okay..tomorrow for sure! And then when the school ended, I went to meet people in the community, met parents. Had to meet some really urgently today, so could not cancel it. 

And then post that, had to go to one friend's place. Had to work with her. It was 7:30 by the time I reached back home. Then had to plan. I don't know why I took more than the normal time in planning today. And then so many small really important things struck my mind as I finished planning. BOY information. Making Final Session Plan. Kids' Hindi. S.ST. EVS. Volunteers plan of action. Presentation. Teachers' Survey. So on and so forth. I have now finally made a list of tasks that needs to be completed. And since I really wanted to vent all this, so this blogpost. Uff. And right now also, my mind is not relaxed, but is still working. Thinking about loads of stuff. 

But this is one phase of life that I had waited for. So,  I am loving it. At least, my mind is not thinking about useless issues! :P But I need to make a proper schedule, like really! 

Day 1!

Day 1 at school! :) 

I so wanted to write this before the start of the second day in school, so 5:30 AM in the morning and so I am  doing this. Reason why I did not it yesterday - IT WAS DAY 1 AT SCHOOL, SO IT WAS BOUND TO BE HECTIC! :D haha..

Morning when I entered the school, the new Fellows and Volunteers were already there, set and waiting for me to come. They were inside Principal ma'am's office when I reached and looked really stressed out :P haha and that clearly reminded me of my first day at school, last year! Such huge transition in one year.. :D. Then, the next thing I did after wishing them, was definitely, meeting my kids. While I was walking the stairs up, I just can't explain how nervous even I was then to see all their faces. Now when I am thinking about it, I think I was nervous because I didn't know whether my kids would smile at me when they see me after 2 months, or whether they would just be very cold, wish me morning and stuff and would start their businesses. But when I saw their faces, Mukesh first, standing at the entry door, waiting for me to come and open it, I was so so happy..that I did not care about anything, and rushed to hug them all. 

Then opened the door, talked to them for sometime, settled the new Fellows by telling them little stuff, assembly started, and then I was back in the class. This is when I got to see all of them, the way they used to be 2 months back, sitting silently and listening to me. I shared my experience at the Sea and the beach at Goa, showed them some pictures and then I was all set to talk about their goals for this year and their future. 

But I had only 13 kids yesterday. Such less strength. Today I will have more. And all my kids were so sleepy yesterday, though I did try to make them feel energetic, but first day probably was too hectic for them, and it was so hot also. 

While coming back in the metro, I messaged the 13'ers asking about how the day was. Sangitha replied "hoping a better tomorrow!", which was exactly the same thing which I used to tell everyone around me last year, and literally said this each and every day!

Anyway, waiting to start teaching today. Day 2. Hoping it to be better.;) (I am saying this even now! :D )

Day 2. Rise and Shine. 

Last day! 

A month and a half gone, I am finally going to see the faces of all my kids (hopefully) tomorrow. The weekly plans, daily plans, lesson plans, INM, GP, IP, Vision, Goals are all back to my life! There is so much that I have learnt over the last year and in this vacation, I want to try and implement those things in my class. 

It will be appropriate to say now that this year is going to test my real teaching skills. Have one year to do so much with them. Phew! Its making me nervous today..and I should be..since its a test. Though I genuinely hope that I am not very hard on myself..just give my best to the kids, their parents and do something that makes sense to me, and them, both of us. 

As I end this post, I want to specifically mention that my eyes are all watery. I do not know why. Is it because I am nervous? I don't know. I just want to go to school tomorrow, now! :) 

Life's gonna get crazy and I am excited! :D 

Unit Planning o_O ! 

This is one thing that scares me out! :O Though I have planned 5 units till now, but still I find this job so tough !  First, you have to decide the story/book that you will do, then you look out or think about the ways you can tie Speaking/Listening, Writing and other things to that one story/book. Uff, such a tedious job this is! And right now my head is spinning like hell. 

And the day is just about to end, and till now I have not decided the book that I will do. May be Aladdin this time. The unit is short, so I do not want to do heavy books this Unit. Will take up simple stories and review as much as possible with the kids. 

Enough of Unit Planning. Just waiting to execute the plans in my head. 

5 days and school gets started! 

When I met Nikhil! :) 

So today, I went to visit the community. I so wanted to see the faces of my kids when they see me! :P First, I went to Dipika's place. Talked to her about this and that. Saw her holidays homework which was nicely done. She was all set to come to school! And I was like "Okay, I should better start planning now!" Haha :D 

And then from there, I decided to go to Nikhil's place. I had promised him a treat if he becomes a nice boy and stop fighting with people on small issues. I met his mom and dad and they told me "ab thoda samajhdaar ho gaya hain yeh" and I was so happy to listen to that. And so as promised to him, I took him to my favourite place, as usual, Mc. Donalds. :D 

I was so happy to take him there. He was so excited to be in the metro. At Mc. D's. And I was so happy to see him, calm and composed. 

Today I observed something about him. No matter how notorious he is, he has a golden heart. My co-fellow in school accompanied both of us at Mc. D's. She asked me about Nikhil's dad. And I thought that he worked in the vegetable market. So I told her the same. And Nikhil kept quiet. On our way back, this is what we talked:-

Nikhil: Bhaiya, aapne didi se jhuth kyun kaha? 

Me: Jhuth? Kaisa jhuth? 

Nikhil: Yahi ki mere papa mandi mein kaam karte hain! 

Me: Ohh, nahin karte! I am sorry..I am forgetting, what does he do? 

Nikhil: Wo abhi kuch nahi karte, main chup raha yeh soch kar ki aap mere papa ka sach nahin batana chahte the! 

Me: *Silent!*

So, Nikhil has a golden heart. Very lovable. May he live a great life ahead! :) :* 

Me, Him, Mc.D's and Chhota Bheem! I am lovin it! :D Para pa pa pa ..yuhuu! :D 

Dental Implant done! 

I never thought a tooth can give so much pain to you! And that too a milk tooth. It took 2 hours for that dentist to get me rid of it and then doing an implant. Such a painful process initially! And all because of the anaesthesia thing! It wouldn't numb that portion to the level required. Then finally I got injected with 4 times the normal quantity of it! :D And then he took that damn thing out, drilled here and there, placed that titanium screw in my gums and then stitched it! Uff..long procedure! 

And now I can say I have a titanium tooth! :D Haha :D 

Urrgg! This discomfort! :( 

Heard it! Read it! And now sharing it! :) 

As she stood in front of her 5th grade class on the very first day of school, she told the children an untruth. Like most teachers, she looked at her students and said that she loved them all the same. However, that was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in his seat, was a little boy named Teddy Stoddard.

Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed that he did not play well with the other children, that his clothes were messy and that he constantly needed a bath. In addition, Teddy could be unpleasant.

It got to the point where Mrs. Thompson would actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X's and then putting a big "F" at the top of his papers.

At the school where Mrs. Thompson taught, she was required to review each child's past records and she put Teddy's off until last. However, when she reviewed his file, she was in for a surprise.

Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is a bright child with a ready laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners... he is a joy to be around.."

His second grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is an excellent student, well liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."

His third grade teacher wrote, "His mother's death has been hard on him. He tries to do his best, but his father doesn't show much interest and his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken."

Teddy's fourth grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't show much interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and he sometimes sleeps in class."

By now, Mrs. Thompson realized the problem and she was ashamed of herself. She felt even worse when her students brought her Christmas presents, wrapped in beautiful ribbons and bright paper, except for Teddy's. His present was clumsily wrapped in the heavy, brown paper That he got from a grocery bag Mrs. Thompson took pains to open it in the middle of the other presents. Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone bracelet with some of the stones missing, and a bottle that was one-quarter full of perfume.. But she stifled the children's laughter when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, and dabbing some of the perfume on her wrist. Teddy Stoddard stayed after school that day just long enough to say, "Mrs. Thompson, today you smelled just like my Mom used to." After the children left, she cried for at least an hour.

On that very day, she quit teaching reading, writing and arithmetic. Instead, she began to teach children. Mrs. Thompson paid particular attention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By the end of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children in the class and, despite her lie that she would love all the children the same, Teddy became one of her "teacher's pets.."

A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling* her that she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still the best teacher he ever had in life.

Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things had been tough at times, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and would soon graduate from college with the highest of honors. He assured Mrs. Thompson that she was still the best and favorite teacher he had ever had in his whole life.

Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time he explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go a little further. The letter explained that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had. But now his name was a little longer.... The letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, MD.

The story does not end there. You see, there was yet another letter that spring. Teddy said he had met this girl and was going to be married. He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and he was wondering if Mrs. Thompson might agree to sit at the wedding in the place that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom.

Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guess what? She wore that bracelet, the one with several rhinestones missing. Moreover, she made sure she was wearing the perfume that Teddy remembered his mother wearing on their last Christmas together.

They hugged each other, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson's ear, "Thank you Mrs. Thompson for* believing in me. Thank you so much for making me feel important and showing me that I could make a difference."

Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes, whispered back. She said, "Teddy, you have it all wrong. You were the one who taught me that I could make a difference. I didn't know how to teach until I met you."

I truly love it! :) <3

11 more days and I'll be a teacher again! 

I want to __________. I don't want to _____

I have never done this to myself. What are those things that I really want? So, I thought of making an attempt today! And here it goes (this is not in the order of preference) :-

1) I want to make books as my best friends. Books of any kind. I want to read whatever, everything, everywhere. Be passionate about reading anything that I come across and not be selective in this regard. 

2) I want to travel the world. Yes, I want to explore places. Know more about the places that are around me or I have dreamt of. I can do this alone as well. The idea of me sitting alone at a place, reading a book, enjoying the view and having chai, totally pleases me! 

3) I want to eat. Lots of things. At lots of places. Try the same things at different places. 

4) I want to join a gym. This has been on my mind since quite a long time now. I want to look fit. A little sexy. :P I do not know why my family people keep showing me the darker side of this. I have to do this. For sometime atleast. And see myself after sometime. How I look! :P 

5) I want to excel in whatever I do. Be it anything. Work. Play. Anything. Everything. 

6) I want people to know me. Know me for the work that I do. Know me for what I am. 

7) I want to write a book. May be an autobiography. Or something else. Have not decided. But yeah, I really want to do it. 

8) I want to have a sound general knowledge. God, I am really poor at it, since I do not read newspaper. Have to start reading it. I want to have strong vocabulary as well. 

9) I want to date someone for more than 4 years. And then get married. :P haha :D

And now comes the next part:-

1) I do not want to have many friends. I have to stop longing for people (other than those at home). Its of no use at all. People just have their own purposes to be with you. Once done, you are done from their lives. 

2) I do not want to die of any disease. If it happens peacefully, I am fine with it.

[This list is short! :P Can't think of anything! :D]

Back to the pavilion! 

Flight journey.Special Moments. First time Late night scooty rides. Curli's. Breezers. Sea. Beaches. Listening to conversations. Leoney Resort. Swimming Pool. Underwater. Eatopia. Juices and More. Mango Tree. Karaoke Night at Brittos. More Breezers. First time Vodka. Live Jazz. Poco Loco. Tito's. Domino's. Coke. Me still silent and contemplating. Unbelievable facts. Lakhua dance. Laughter. Silly diving in the pool. Lame jokes. Haunted Roads. Houses. Jokes. And much more at Goa. And its over! So soon! 

1st June is here! And its an important day! 

Yes, its an important day, since it marks the beginning of June. And June is a very important month for me since I have loads to be accomplished this month. Below are the several reasons that makes this day important:-

1) Today, I am exactly 3 days away from the much awaited trip "GOA". I don't know why is it awaited, since I am 0% percent excited about it (as of now). I am rather scared of it (for various reasons! :P). But still, I want to be there, get lost in the beach, and be with myself! Rejuvenate! Just the idea that I am going to be away from Delhi, for 5 days, makes me wait for it! 

2) After coming back from Goa, I have to finalize a lot of things. BTCP, post TFI options (though I have been deciding this since last one year, haha :D and never came to a conclusion! :P), have to plan for class and blah blah blah blah (stuff similar to these :P)! 

3) Have to prepare myself for lots of downs! :P Yeaah :P, though I sincerely hope that "downs" don't happen! Haha :D This day makes me exactly a month away from school! So a lot of "downs"!  :D 

4) And also, 5 people in my family, were born in this month! So, the birthdays make this month extra special! Since I will be tensed most of the times (which again I do not want to be! :P), the birthday parties will reduce the stress a little, I believe! Bring peace! And make me happy! Hopefully! :D 

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!! 

So, Raman Bahl, GET SET GOooooooooo!!!!! :D 

Certain things not destined to be yours! 

I was just wondering how one's life is determined by what's written in his destiny! Though I also believe that one can change his/her destiny but do not know how that happens. I have led my life by thinking the least about it and opting whatever comes my way. 

Whenever I have given a thought about something, very deeply, then that thing never happens to me. Yeah, that's so true! When I start taking interest in something, and want to get it, I never get it! haha, I do sound funny but this is the reality! o_O

Anyway, now I do not really want to mention about what I wanted and what I did not get. Enough of all that!  I am now just waiting for this break to get over, get busy with school and kids, and do some productive work man! This idle time kills me from within. It makes me feel uncomfortable. And it makes me think about issues I do not want to think. Being idle, for me, is surely a crime. Coz I think I do the most stupid stuff when I am idle. People at home take this as an advantage. When I am free, then they make me do stupid stuff and I do not like doing that at all. 

Now coming June, I shall go to school, make myself busy and do everything that will prevent me from thinking about issues that I do not want to think. I do not want to be dependent on too many people around me. That's it! People never guarantee you anything!! Aarrgh! 

The obsession is not right, but I can't help it! 

I have suddenly developed this huge obsession for one of my friends. And I know that it is not good, but still I am not able to come out of it. What to do? Neither I can ignore, nor I can be too much obsessed with that friend of mine.

I am not feeling good today. And the entire blame has to go on too much dependence of mine on others. Knowing the fact, that this obsession is not going to help anyway, still I became obsessed with that friend. And also, I am very well aware that obsession is not good if you are expecting that friendship to last forever.   In spite of the awareness, I got obsessed. And this is not happening for the first time. Wow, Raman!  You're just so good!!

Obsession has not helped anyone, as they say "Excess of everything is bad!". So excess of friendship is also bad. It has just created problems.

And now having such days consecutively since last week, I now suddenly feel that the best way to keep myself away from all this is getting busy. Getting busy with loads of stuff. I am missing school!

36 days more to go!

Came across this and felt like sharing! 

Today, I read an article by Wendy Kopp, CEO, Teach for America. In that article, she talks about the three myths about making an impact. 

Myth#1

Its better to wait until you have some experience

Myth#2

Having an impact is about being first. 

Myth#3

Coming up with a big idea. 

Conclusion: Do not put your desire to change the world on hold. Start now, in constant pursuit of learning and impact. 

My Reflection on this: The myths are true and I believe that age/experience/being first/big idea does not really contribute to making an impact. An impact can be made just by one small work that you do. The basic factor is the motivation that lies within you, to make an impact. But at the same time I also feel that  being knowledgeable really counts. Knowledge in terms of what people actually need. What are the things that are hindering their progress? What can I do to make sure that those hindrances are removed? And then only the impact will be a sustainable one. 

And now after reading this, I am thinking about my BTCP. What should it be? 

Umm, will find it out really soon! :) 

Routine these days! 

I would like to write my routine that I am following these days. Not because it is something that requires publishing but because I want to realize myself what I do. 

Morning!! 

I get up at around 5:30 AM (yeah, that is my habit! :P). Then by 6:30 I would get ready, then go for driving practice. Then when I come back, I eat breakfast. By 8, I would be just sitting idle after finishing breakfast.  And on rare occasions like these, I would write (blog/diary/anything else) or read something (if the book that I am reading is interesting enough :P). If I am not doing any of this, then I would go back to sleep. Sleep till 11 AM. Yes, I like sleeping when I am at home. Then till 12 I would just start cribbing. Cribbing for some stupid reasons. Like: Shit I do not have anything to do! What to do now? I do not feel like doing anything! Why the hell I am at home today? I should have gone out. Done something. Then I would start blaming myself for reasons like I do not have any other interests apart from my work. I do not have a big goal for myself. I am just good for nothing. 

Afternoon!! 

Then by 12 PM or so, I would take out my laptop. Today its not yet 12. But since I have nothing to do, so this blogpost! :D Then I would check my emails. Ha! As if I am the busiest persons on this earth and get lot of emails. And simultaneously I would check my notifications on fb. As if I am a celebrity and get lots of notifications or I am very popular in my peer group that they all keep tagging me, or keep posting me on fb. None of these. Then also I do not know why I keep checking emails and notifications on fb. There should be a fixed time for this. 

By the time I finish doing all this, mom would call me for lunch. I finish eating in less than 10 minutes. And then I feel that I should do something productive and that I have wasted time since morning. And then suddenly, this would come up: "Ohh!! I am so tired now and should sleep for sometime, I am not fresh enough to do anything right now!" And then I will again go back to sleep. Sleep till 5 PM easily. 

Evening!! 

Now again after getting up, I would crib. Crib for various reasons. By this time, my mom realizes that I have not been feeling very comfortable since morning. And then she would talk to me. Give me various suggestions. And then I would show my discomfort to her. That's all I do. 

Then, may be I would go for a walk. But before this, I would think twice, thrice about many questions. Like: I do not have a friend nearby with whom I can walk. What will I do? I do not need a work out. And similar things. Somehow, I prepare my mind to move out. And I would take my phone with me. So I call people. Talk to them. Share my problems with them (problems that are not exactly problems when I am working or when I am busy, but when I have a lot of free time to think!) 

Night! 

And then the dinner. Which I would again eat in less than 10 minutes. May be I would watch TV when I am eating. And I do not like watching TV! I hate it! After this, I would again check emails and notifications. At this time I would feel that I have not chatted on fb today. I would chat for may be 10 minutes with somebody whom I have not spoken to for a long time. And I may/may not get a reply from that person's side. I would wait for sometime. And then I would finally sign out. Shut my laptop. Pick a book. And lie down. I would read for an hour (at max) and then would sleep!!!!! 

So, this is the schedule these days. Any suggestions for me please! I so want to change it. Make my free time busy in way that I do not feel that I am free! Pleeeeeaaassssee! 

Visitors of my blog! I need your comments here! 

Do not know what the heading should be! 

Here I am. End of another day. But this day had no accomplishments at all. I feel incomplete today.

Incomplete in many ways:-

1) Did nothing productive today. 

2) No signs of me getting Ummeed. :'( I do not know what will happen now. Those kids really want to clear tenth grade. Its a must for them. I do not know from where will they get a teacher. 2 years and 2 people have worked really hard on them. I just hope they are motivated enough to do it themselves. Or I hope that things turn around.  For them. For the two teachers who have taught them.

3) I hate the fact that people take me for granted. and today I saw an instance of the same. I do not know what it takes for you to be valued by people. Of course, not too many, since that is not possible. Or is it? I do not know. 

Right now when I am thinking of people for whom I am really valuable, I am actually not getting anyone except family. Is it just me who longs for this value? Or are there other people as well who want to be valued? I do not know even that. I just know that if I am the only person on this earth "desperate" for being valued, then I really have to change this. But how? Its too difficult. 

*Sigh* 

I want tomorrow asap! 

Wandering in the streets of Seelampur, Shahadara and Welcome! ;) 

So today I was in the streets of Seelampur, Shahadara and Welcome. It was real fun! :) And while I was roaming, I got a chance to think about a lot of things!!! 

About the people living in the community:-

• In spite of such narrow lanes, small houses, really small businesses, the people could smile. Wow! I was truly amazed to see this. 
• When my friend told them the purpose of why we were there, some of them really supported us! One of them took us on his bike to the people who we could talk to and who could help us! 
• People understand! I had always thought that others never have the time to listen to anyone. But I was really happy to see that people try to listen and understand you (obviously, when the topic of discussion is understandable! :P)
• Even they want to eradicate the problems by helping! But the problem is of the resources. They do not have enough to offer to needy people. 
• People can discuss their own problems, in the first meeting. Main factor: TRUST! If people trust you, then while listening, they can also share their own problems with you. And building trust does not really take that long! Or does it? I do not know. Walking in the streets there for 3 or 4 hours, and talking to people whom we met for the first time, we also got to listen a lot about their problems. Isn't it trust that made them share with us? 
• People want to make their living "lively". No matter how narrow the lanes are, they want to beautify it, celebrate it to their level best!! Below is a picture of a lane I clicked.which was really narrow, but how people made it lively, I was happy to see that!!!! :) 

*Sigh* 

And while my friend was there enquiring...I was thinking about all this also:-

• I did not really have a purpose behind going there, except helping my friend out. But I was feeling happy about being there. Just by getting to know about people, just by exploring about these areas. And now when this day is about to end, I feel that I have done something. I do not know what. But still I get this feeling. 
• I do not know what am I getting out of this. But still I feel like exploring more. Just walking without a destination! Wandering! 

Ready to go for this again tomorrow! :) 

Okay!!!

Just 2 days back, I was so happy with the fact that the "Summer Break" has started! :D Yesterday was one of the busiest days so far. And today its going to be all the more busy! I am lovin' it! :D 

I met the kids at Ummeed yesterday. Taught two complete lessons. To my surprise, the kids understood them! :P

Today is another day when I have a lot to do. A lot to connect! A lot to accomplish! Will be travelling from one corner of the city to another! 

Hope this day brings in new hopes and happiness! :) 

I welcome today's morning! 

Morning ! 

As this day approaches,

I promise to remain calm and composed,

I promise to be on my own,

I promise to remain happy, busy during all times of the day! 

I assure myself that this day will be productive,

for I have miles to go, 

to reach the final destination! 

This day is one milestone, which I have to achieve! 

This day will be mine, and I shall use it and not waste it...

For I have miles to go, before I sleep, before I sleep!

Last line taken from some other poem (I do not remember the title) :D !! 

And the Summer Break has started! Really?? 

Yesterday was the last day in school. My kids gave so many gifts, told me that they are going to miss me! <3 And I was just thinking about the break, Ummeed and Babul-ul-loom!!! I am so happy that I have got this break and now finally I can think something about what to do. Which path to opt for? 

The break is not really a break for me. I will start with teacher training next week at Babul-ul-loom. And I will also visit Ummeed to decide what to do. Looking forward to the next 50 days. And also how can I forget Goaaa.. 

I hope this break sets me up and prepares me for the next big year at TFI!! 

Welcome Summer Holidays! :D